Damn it. I'm losing the feeling in my foot. Again. This makes what, the third time? It comes and goes, and seems to last longer each time. I'm getting worried that it might be coming back. The surgery was experimental, after all, so it might not have done what it needed to do to cure me. If this is what I think it is, I'm going to go back to the doctor and getting myself treated in the standard, non-experimental way. Then it should be over and done. I'm worried, though...and probably just paranoid, but I looked up something the doctor mentioned last time. CIPD, which is like, chronic GBS. The thought of possibly having that and not being able to be cured at all scares the living crap out of me. I don't want to live my life being constantly medically treated, possibly having relapses and collapsing during some of the most important moments of my life... God it freaks me out so much just to think about it. Which is why I won't. Unless the GBS treatment doesn't work and it comes back. Again.

I should probably tell someone...but I don't want them to worry. Mom and Dad think I'm doing just fine, that the surgery was great and although risky, was worth it to have worked. They knew it was experimental, and sometimes they still treat me like I'm going to break because they're watching like hawks for any sign that it didn't. And Gen and Keigo....I know I should tell them, too, but... I just can't. I can't bring myself to do it. I don't want to be seen as being weak or flawed...and while I know Gen would stay by my side just like he did last time, I don't want him going back to treating me like I'm made of glass. ...I don't know how Keigo would handle it. And I refuse to let the rest of the team know. I don't want to be an absentee captain again. I just....

I'll be careful for a while, not to do anything that might like, mess with my body in other ways. I might have just like, twisted my ankle or something. I don't really have proof that it is what I think it is. I just have to hold out. Once I know for sure that that's what it is, I'm going back to the doctor. I mean it.

I'm so tired of doing homework!! Can't I be out of school yet?

At least the team's doing well. And from what I hear, the junior high has a pretty good setup this year as well, so maybe they'll make it to Nationals. That'd be great, if both junior and senior highs make it!

(ooc: Strikes were going to be private, but after remembering that Renji (or Inui) might be able to hack it if they were privated, Yuki decided just to delete them.)

Team 6: Do not let me down this week.

If anyone needs me, I'll be out training complete with extra weights, and I won't be stopping until I pass out, most likely. I need to sort myself out, somehow.

(ooc: strikes private to himself.)

Apologies to Chinen-kun and Muromachi-kun for being reserves. The two of you just arrived, and I haven't had much of a chance to see you play, yet, so I don't quite feel comfortable putting you into the tournament without knowing your styles. I'll try to make sure you both play next time.

...Hm.

That was interesting.

And I'm left a little...disturbed? No. More like...I feel a little off my axis.

(ooc: Strikes deleted XD )

Hmmm...

( Atobe )

Pink on the uniforms. Not a color I would've chosen, but at least it's just the accent color.

And I do have such an interesting fellow for a roommate. ^_^

It's just a shame that I can't be at Rikkai, doing my part as captain. Ah well. That's what the surveilance system is for. ^____^

(ooc: Strikes deleted)

Aaaah, it does feel so good to be captain again. ^__^

( ooc note - rikkai-muns read )

( Private )
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( Renji, Genichirou )

Renji, Genichirou - remember what we talked about. Tomorrow's the big day. Are you ready?

( Marui, Yagyuu, Niou )